If Love Is The Answer, Can You Rephrase the Question
Once the last trace of emotion has been eradicated, nothing remains of thought but absolute tautology.
I wrote this the night before one of the biggest fights in the past 10 years. Oscar De La Hoya stepped in the ring with Pretty Boy Floyd Mayweather. At some point of this fight someone will get knocked out, beaten to a pulp and straight up put on their ass. I think my heart might not be able to get up from the last knock out, I don't believe my heart will ever be the same. I consulted w/ my promoter which is my mind, He seems to think that I have a few more fights left in me. My heart has stepped in the ring w/ a sparring partners and gotten in a good workout. But I just don't feel the same championship allure from the old days. My best friend told me that I had my run, that God said I'm going to give this young dude all he desires, but it's over for us
Well if you haven't figured it out I'm talking bout my relationships with females. It has been the boxing career of Tyson, Holyfield, Ali, and Roy Jones all wrapped in one. A glorious reign of being the champion which ends in failed attempts at recapturing glory. There was the girl who planned a trip and went missing, The girl who said she wanted to be everything but ended up being nothing more than a runaway bride, a few girls w/ a glass jaw, one "punch" and done, and the girl who walked in my life took my heart, caressed it, nurtured it and was everything I ever wanted in a female... It still hurts to much to even say how that ended. She destroyed the little hope I had left in finding a female to settle down with. 
But then i heard a voice, a voice that made my spine tingle, a female who seems so cool I think I transform into a penguin or a polar bear or another one of those Arctic beast. But I need to smell her, touch her skin, and get lost in the stare from her eyes. I need her to be real, real like "Real Sex" 1 the show that sparked 48,000 other episodes. Maybe I should fly out to the other side of the globe just to hold her shake her hand and go about my life b/c with my past I don't know if my heart can handle another painful knockout. But if shes out there I want her to know that I appreciate her, that I want to be her everything, and that I would give her my all, that I will go 12 rounds in this relationship and do the equivalent of running in the mountains at 4am, 3000 push ups daily... I want to be the PS3 of love. I haven't given up hope yet, I'm just a little skeptical of the mentality of Venus.
