Full Metal Jacket.
There is a moment in all of our lives, when our problems become too much for us to deal with, and life begins to feed you a steady diet of bullshit. But what do you do? Do you fold and give in to the pressure or do you buckle down and become the greatest soldier the world has ever seen? Or maybe you just settle somewhere in between. Last night I stayed up late until 4 in the morning watching Full Metal Jacket. Private Pyle had just got beat w/ the soap in towel. At that moment God showed me a metaphor for my life.
You see, life will forever be a bitch w/ her period on, but you have to buckle down and deal w/ the shit or just give up like Pyle. The speech after the beating sums it up for me. POWER. Life is about power, and how does one achieve power? To me, my power is the power of voice. Leaving a daily legacy for my children to follow in, as I walk down an endless road searching for wealth. So I'll take Pyle's transformation into a great soldier, and apply it to my life. As people think he's finally lost it, he has everything in control. He finally has the POWER to end everything that has stopped him. He takes his life into his own hands and kills himself. I believe a successful suicide is the greatest form of taking control of your life the world has to offer.
But if you have the power to end your life, you also have the power to recreate your life and that's where my life comes in. Right now I am beginning to start over. And this time I won't fail. I will achieve every goal i set forth. Life is looking great. And as my mind takes one man's demons and turn them into a reason to live life to the fullest I'm aware that life is great. That I am blessed, just as Pyle was blessed to be transformed into a private who couldn't accomplish anything into a person who could do it all. I will be that great at what I have to do in this world. My mission on earth will be done to perfection. So I'll go hard until my number gets call, soul touch the sky, till my body gets hard and God shuts my eyes... I'm going Ride. Ride to the top of the mountain top that MLK saw. My life has just begun, and I'm going to win.